If it’s important you will make the time, right?

Being vulnerable takes courage. To be honest – I suck at being vulnerable. I do try, however, I am not good at sharing my deep emotions and feelings. And when I do, it seems not to come outright. Yes, I am feeling a bit sorry for myself right now, and that is why I am writing.

Allow me to just get rid of my thoughts, emotions and feelings. In a world where I think people long for connection, the irony where I am today is that the more I seek that connection, the less I am getting it.  It seems like my timing is always out, that when I am at my lowest, so are others.  People are either looking for instant gratification or choosing to have their heads down in their own reality.

Since my profession is being an executive and private coach, I feel that some people think my life is perfect.

So what have I done to change this some of you might ask? I have connected, I have been vulnerable,  I have used my words to say ‘ I miss you’. ‘ I feel alone’. I have bought someone I deem important a surprise slice of her favourite cake and had it delivered to her workplace – and I did this because I know that she is in a dark place, in her reality trying to keep head above water.  I am yet to receive a text just to say thank you.

Maybe this means that I need to re-evaluate my relationships.

Someone once told me last year – ‘if it is important to you, you will find the time’.

I am Marie. I am human. I have feelings, thoughts and emotions.  When you bump me I bruise. When I get injured I bleed. When you isolate me, I die inside.